It's not been easy it's bee a roller coaster ride. There has been many times I wanted off and thought about ways to get off the roller coaster. No One should ever have to go through that much pain and heartache. I know there is beauty in the ashes. And good that comes from everything. I want to see the good eventually. I haven't found it but it's there somewhere.
There is so many things I wish I could talk to you about. All of the things that happen in life. Krystal's new boyfriend, no I don't like him yet. And yes he feels the same about me. Lori's new house. Krys's new job, Heather being a senior. Kyle going to college. Me possibly looking for a job. Stuart's struggles with showing Krys how much he cares. My struggles with Grandma and Grandpa. Meg's struggles having her Mom date again. I always loved to talking with you. You always made me smile and laugh.
Bub, I will always love you and you will always be in my heart. You will always be my ray of sunshine. What I wouldn't give to hear "watsup" or "Mommy' I love you." I will always wonder what you would be doing or where you would be? Would you be clean? Raising a family? I will never have those answers so for now you will be in my heart and I will be be content with life moving on.
