I did pray for Bryan on a daily basis, as I do for all my children. As every parent I know prays for their children. I know praying parents whose children have been in horrible accidents, that have chosen a life of living on the streets and drugs, children that died in their praying parents arm. The reason isn't because the parent didn't pray hard enough or often enough. The bottom line is there is a bigger picture and My God has a plan for all of us. We won't know the answers to the questions until we see God face to face.
I wish we could heal everyone with prayers, that wayward children would come home if we pray more or that another parents heart could be spared being torn in half from losing a child by praying longer or harder. For most of us parents, especially a parent that experienced a sick, a child that has had an accident or a wayward child, it's impossible to pray longer, harder or more often. God does answer each prayer, but many times its not the way we want or expect. God is with each of our children. He guards them protects them, helps them with pain and discomfort. He has been with every step of mourning Bryan. He loves me. He loved Bryan even more than I did. He did answer my prayer, my child is at peace, no more pain, no more demons to fight, Bryan feels more love than I could give him.
My friend gave me a picture this picture when Bryan died. I can't tell you how comforting this is. Thank you Janeen.
