Grief letter

Dear Friends and Family,

The last two months, since the loss of Bryan, has been the most difficult time of my life.  It has been more difficult than I could have imagined.  I miss Bryan more every day.  This process is going to take me a long time to get through, sometimes it feels like it is going to last forever. 

Thank you for being there and supporting me during this time. I ask that you continue to support me through this process.  There will be unexpected tears, times of me being psycho, I willl be angry for no reason and I am sure I will make you uncomfortable with my tears, rage and my repeating the same memories of him.  I am processing the loss.  I don't apolagize for these behaviors it is normal and me going through the process.  I don't need to fix me .  I just need you to listen and be there for me.  I need your love, understanding and patience.  You don't have to have the answers to the questions I am asking, and you don't have to know what to say to me.  The things that help the most are a caring glance, a hug or listening to me, and its ok to cry with me. 

When I start to withdrawl, please dont let me for too long. Reach out to me, dont let me lock myself up inside.  Call me, get me out of my house, a morning walk, lunch a movie, a workout anything.  Its not good for me to be alone all the time. Don't wait for me to call you since most of the time too tired or tearful and I don't want to impose on you and your family. Please don't ask me to make any decissions my brain is mush and I can't think.  Help me think through my decissions so I don't make any rash decissions.  I am doing a lot of that lately.

Continue to pray for me and my family.  Pray that we will accept Bryan's death, and I will continue to feel God's love and comfort.  Pray that we will all find something good that comes from all of this.  It does help to know you are praying for me.

The loss of Bryan is painful and is the worst thing I have ever had to go through.  But I will survive and eventually be stronger than I was before. I know that I will always feel this way. I know there will be joy in the morning. 

Thank you for caring about me.  Thanks for listening to me and praying for me.  Your caring and concern comforts me and is a true gift from God.  He has given me a great support system.

Love you always,
Trish